a thought and a question

first the question. is this a "creepy" blog? anyone is free to answer. todd told me the pictures are creepy. i think they are artistic. different humans, different opinions.

now the thought. so yesterday i was in hopkins and i took my new laptop (which is weird) and i went out by the pool at a resort in front of the ocean. it was almost like an out of body experience. i was imagining myself as someone else walking out by the pool and sitting down like this was normal life. and really to a good portion of the world.. that is normal life. and not just to fancy people with razor phones and a tan. in fact, oddly enough one of the people i was picturing myself as is a girl i knew at Utah State in natural resources. her name is erin and i did surveys for her in the grand staircase escalante in southern utah. i could see her sitting by this pool, looking a little grundgy, drinking out of her hip thermal mug, laughing with friends and looking over the collected data on her laptop. at home you can find that strange mix of hippy earthy and modern techy... you know.

anyhow, i was thinking how this possibly normal existence to half the world, is maybe the furthest thing from normal for the other half of the world. and now that i have lived in and seen and experienced both sides, how can i ever do either or both again with out feeling at least a little bit weird or abnormal.

and so that explains my current and consistent state of feeling so in between and conflicting and contradicting about just about everthing.