o well

secrets out. don't tell. how short lived.

sometimes i feel like so much of life is deep in your head. swirling around, and some how you think that everyone around you is aware of all your thoughts and anxieties and decision making processes. but the beautiful thing about life is that they have no idea. you can be a complete wreck in your head and then in a swift moment of "i'll take chocolate.." no one has any idea that you are completely falling apart inside because of having to make the decision. you really can 'appear' to be just about as put together as you want. but the real wonderful thing i have learned lately is a trick my friend sara taught me out of a book she read. it is about controlling anger ultimately, but really it works for any emotion you feel is too strong. you just say in your head "i have control over my body" suddenly you have taken the power away from the emotion and given the power back to yourself. i love the feeling of having power over what i feel, because i think too often we think that what we feel is a part of our lives that we can never choose. it just seems to be what it is.

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